4.28.17 | The Day My Life Changed Forever
Our first-born made her grand entrance two weeks ago. I can’t believe I am a mommy, I can’t believe I am a mommy of two weeks, & I can’t believe I survived being a mommy these past two weeks! Wow-life as I knew it has disappeared.
Callie Mae has brought Wesley & I so much excitement, fear, happiness, love, nervousness, sleep-deprivation, etc. Two weeks ago I was able to catch up on my shows, eat a full meal, go to bed at my usual ‘grandma time’ and sleep a full 8 hours, run to the store whenever I wanted, go to the spa and get my hair and nails done, meet my friends for lunch/movie…(I can literally go on-and-on). Yes-all of those parts of my life are gone for now BUT the trade off is something indescribable.
I will admit, becoming a new parent is SCARY. You immediately have this overwhelming sense of responsibility that never goes away. I have second-guessed myself so many times & I have broken down a time or three! Don’t even get me started on breastfeeding & cluster feeding!
They tell me to: ‘sleep when baby sleeps’, ‘take the help when it’s offered’, ‘just say no to visitors if you aren’t up for them’. I’ve personally found these and other bits of advice to be a lot harder than I once thought. I’ve had to learn to take my own advice and not just the advice of others…to sleep but also enjoy some ‘me time’ (whether that be tv, social media, pampering, etc.), to take the help but also the time to figure out how to do it on my own, and to welcome those who are excited for my family because this is an exciting time that only comes around once.
This time has also been incredible. I feel as though I made a new friend and we are getting to know each other better-and-better each day. It’s such a comfort knowing I will have this person in my life to be a friend, a companion, and a love from now on. It’s an honor to know that I have the privilege to teach this person sweet life lessons and joys.
As I said, life as I knew it is gone & I thank the Lord that my new life has just begun. I’m scared and I’m overjoyed. I will have my hard times, I will take the advice of others, I will learn to trust my instincts, and I will celebrate the beauty of this blessing.
If you are a parent, I encourage you to comment below and share your experience, your advice, and your lessons learned.